that was my confirmation.
i've been left behind. again.
by those who promised to always stay together,
by those who i was supposed to walk forward with.

why bother to make promises, when time erodes words into nothingness? why swear to always be there, when your silhouette shrinks with every step taken? i can hardly be blamed for being such a skeptic of the human race, can i? or maybe it's just me eh. it's never my fault, always someone else's.

then again, why believe empty promises, when you know time will erode it all? why believe they'll be back, watching their retreating backs? i didn't jump ships, because i believed. now everyone's gone, the ship is sunk, and i'm floundering. i get a chill when i see the word "friends", because i know how irrelevant it is to me.

a million words to say, a thousand tears to cry, three hundred and fifty one contacts, two hundred and twenty four friends, and it all adds up to zero.

yes, i've been left behind.
at a time when i need them most, of course.

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9:01 PM